Three weeks since my last post! I haven't dome much in those three weeks. But also I haven't really thought about alcohol. I just don't think about it anymore. It's doesn't bother me when someone has a drink in front of me. Even at home. When I go out I have sparkling water, or join the kids in having a lemonade, or an iced tea, or even a hot chocolate. I imagine it will be harder in summer - there's nothing like a nice cold beer on a hot day - so I'll have to find something as a replacement before that time. But I digress. I'm writing now because hubby is out for a run and the  kids are upstairs playing. It's the calm before the storm! My parents in law arrive this afternoon to spend Christmas with us. They will be drinking. I will not. Hubby will be drinking. I will not. We are going to friends' for Christmas lunch. They will be drinking. I will not. I say this with completely neutral feelings. I don't feel angry about it. Or frustrated. I actually feel nothing - I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not but it seems better than feeling angry. I'm looking forward to enjoying Christmas day with friends and family and being completely present in the moment - instead of being in a heady haze of champagne. I'm also looking forward to being able to do something with the evening - instead of just looking for more alcohol to drink. And of course to waking up on Boxing Day without a hangover!